Diary Of Selfish
Welcome to the Diary Of Selfish where poets are not poets
The Laughing Heart (Edited)
your life is your life don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission. be on the watch. there are ways out. there is light somewhere. it may not be much light but it beats the darkness. be on the watch. Allah will offer you chances. know them. take them. you can’t beat death but you can beat death in life, sometimes. and the more often you learn to do it, the more light there will be. your life is your life. know it while you have it. you are marvelous Allah wait to delight in you. -- by Shame of poetry(edited from Charles Bukowski)
Selftalk
i didn’t want you to love me i wanted you to let me love you without any purpose, goal, lust, nothing, only to love i didn't want to let you love me as i can't be loved you deserve more than me all of you you are few but you know you are lot i cried not for you not for my illness not for my close one's death i cried in those nights and these nights for what i made myself... i loved and fled away again and again but i couldn't hide from myself how can i! i insisted myself to forget but i ended up remembering you.... i don't know how much you know me yeah you the girl from the dawn i couldn't love you you pure soul the girl my reading companion who let me read with her till the night ended and you my marsshine it started with you may it won't end with you i will end looking towards all of you i am dying everyday slowly i didn't feel week when i failed i didn't shatter when that bike hit i didn’t cried when my leg broke no physical pain i feel the pain i feel week i feel dying when my mind hurts it won't end here I love you... i will be hurt again and again cause my mind is hurting me killing me again and again i don't deserve love as i can't take responsibility i didn't express my love until there will be no responsibility i won't let you love i will try to make you the one who hate me i am destroying myself day by day may be there is no remedy all my fault i made such a mind that turned into a slow poison all i need forgiveness i seek your forgiveness if you thought i loved in mars you are the only one i would wish to see you before my eye closes without sleeping i just keep making broken stories from life someday it will stop, that day may be l will stop too... -------- Shame of Poetry
